//dirt

I am longing for the day when I am released from all my responsibilities and can plant a garden with my daughter.  

A very large part of me just wants to quit everything [mostly just school...actually more like Greek II] and just plant a garden.  I guess it's good that it is still cold out...maybe by the time it is warm enough to begin sewing seed, I will have my head on straight and be thinking "rationally".

I can't wait to smell dirt...

//Dependance

I have been thinking a lot lately.  

But I have not posted anything for many, many weeks...

I think it is because I now know my words are hollow and are better left within my mind.  I am becoming more and more aware of my "finite-ness" as a human being.  I am feeble and weak, unable to start or complete any movement or thought without being completely dependent upon my Father.  

While I am aware of this cognitively and rejoice at the thought of it, I cannot help but confess that my flesh is in rebellion to this satisfying dependance.  While I long for communion with Christ,to  acknowledge and live in His full will, I get so lost in my own words, thoughts, conjectures and critiques that I so quickly loose focus of my Beloved.

May we come to see the Kingdom of God not only lived out on earth, but also thriving within us.